Kara's Column > Open-ended Conversation
One of my favorite exercises in John Fox's book "Poetic Medicine" is about using open ended questions to get to know a child or your own inner child. But my heart does catch sometime when doing the exercise because my own child is dead and will never be able to have those open ended conversations with me. So I was thinking of ways that a bereaved person might still "talk" with their loved one who is gone. And open ended questions are the way to go!!
I know we can't really talk to our deceased loved ones, but we can do some free writing and see what comes as part of an imaginative, mindful, even spiritual exchange. The idea is to come up with a list of open ended questions. These are questions that require more than a "yes" or "no" answer. And then to pose those questions to yourself while you have a blank piece of paper or a blank screen in front of you. Then don't think about it -- just write or type. Stream of conscience. Don't stop, keep going, don't edit, don't fix spelling errors, just keep writing. See what comes from the top of mind and heart.
So open ended questions you might ask could be things like:
These are just ideas for questions. You are invited to make up you own list to add to these or to use instead of these. The results may be writings that you'd like to keep privately in your journal. Or they may be a great tool to use in a therapeutic setting or with a spiritual guide. They may be something you'd like to add to your child's memory book. You might share them with others you trust or send them in for one of the bereavement support newsletters like MISS or Compassionate Friends.
What you do with the results is entirely secondary. The most important thing is to write freely as you answer the questions. I find that to really stay in the stream of free writing, I have to have the time and space to do it. The phone ringers need to be turned off, everyone else in the house has to know it is not okay to interrupt me, my email reader and internet browser must be closed, instant messenger must be disconnected!!
Sometimes the best place for free writing is when I do it with old fashioned pen & paper while sitting on one of the outside benches on the ferry boat!! Almost no one sits out there, the ride gives me at least 15 to 20 minutes, I can smell the salt air, see the waters of the Sound, the trees of the islands all around -- and I just write, write, write. And usually, I put it away immediately and don't go back to read it till a day or two later. It is at this later time that I will correct spelling errors and the like. And let me just say that sometimes, when I go back and read the writings, I'm floored by what is there. I don't mean that in a bragging "look at me such a great writer" way. I just mean that it sometimes is writing that makes me feel very close to my son who is so far away now. It always shocks me just a little to feel him near again.
Your experience might be completely and totally different. That's okay!! It just about the experiment -- the writing -- the process -- and freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom to make the words flow. If something more comes of it, then that's cool, too.
Try it!! Claim your freedom!
Kara L.C. Jones is a graduate of Carnegie Mellon University where she honed her poetic craft under the mentorship of Jim Daniels. Her poetic and non-fiction works have been included in publications such as New Works Review, PoetsWest, Real Henna, Shared Heart Foundation's "Meant To Be", LightHearts Publication's "Soul Trek", MISSing Angels Newsletter, American Tanka, Mother Tongue Ink's We'Moon, Honored Babies, Cup of Comfort series, and more. Because she refused to give her grief writing over to the control of outside editors and publishers after the death of her son, she and her husband Hawk founded KotaPress in 1999 as a creative outlet for their expressive artworks. She has been facilitating online and in-person workshops for over 10 year, including sessions offered at the International MISS Conferences, WA State Poets Association Burning Word festivals, and Course Bridge.