by
Katie Smith
Subject: Dreams
Date: May 11, 2003
I had a dream a few weeks
ago. My Son was being cared
for by his Uncle.
I haven't seen my brother,
since he left this world
over ten years ago. He told
me that they were both okay.
I wanted to see my Son,
but he told me that wouldn't
be possible right now. I
hugged my brother; I felt
his warmth. The dream was
as real as life itself.
I asked him not to leave
us again, but he said he
had to go. Charles was calling
for him. He turned around
as he was leaving and stated
that he would be back with
Charles another time. A
few days later, I had another
vivid dream. My brother
returned with Charles. He
wasn't that tiny baby anymore.
He appeared to be of the
age of a healthy living
child at age 3. That is
how old my beautiful Son
would have been on this
Mother's Day. Charles hugged
me and said, "I love
you, Mommy!"
I didn't want to let him
go, but Charles said he
had to go home. I kept saying,
"But you're home, honey."
He looked at me as if I
didn't understand. My brother
took him out of my arms
and they disappeared as
quickly as they came. And
then I woke up. I woke up
to a quiet house without
my Son. I haven't had any
dreams of him since the
first year after I lost
Charles. I haven't even
dreamt of my brother for
several years. I woke up
with mixed emotions. I wished
the dream didn't end. I
wish I could have held him
longer. I felt like the
dream meant that my Brother
and Son are in a better
place. They are safe and
happy. They will be in that
safe place that I call Heaven
waiting for me to eventually
join them. May peace and
love surround them with
warmth until that time comes.
I miss them dearly. I will
hold them close to my heart
forever and always.
Charles' Everlasting
Imprint on my Heart
by Katie Smith, Charles'
Mom in Honor of Mother's
Day 2003
Caring Spirit
Heavenly Love
Angelic presence
Really precious
Loved Forever
Eternal Peace
Sweet as Pie
The love for my Son will
live on within me forever
and always!
Katie Smith is the co-editor
of the KotaPress Loss Journal,
a working member of Neo
Fight, co-founder of the
IN MISS Chapter, bereaved
mommy to Charles, and so
much more. (We at KotaPress
are continually grateful
for her help and insights!!)
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