Tonight
at the football game...
Tonight at the football game I saw them coming, walking down the side lines, a group of robust seventh graders. Broadening shoulders, changing voices, rumbling along, laughing and stealing looks at girls. For a moment I could picture him there, my Levi, forever 9, with his buddies, Steve, ants and Myles the seventh graders. Would he be tall? What girl would be secretly like...? Would be a sassy strong willed teen ager, I'd like to think so...
Life has gone on, seeing my son's friends who have erupted into teenagers
seemingly just over the summer, is my living proof. Nearly 4 years have
passed since we said goodbye for now to our son.
His memory is my constant companion, my back ground music all day long
everyday. It has settled down to a dull roar most days, I can focus on
other tasks along with grieving, maybe i'm good at it now...
but it never fades, who Levi was, his place in the world, where he would be, who he would be will always be an unanswerable sacred mystery to me.
His friends will grow taller and wiser, the day they graduate from high
school...the days news of college graduations, jobs, and then marriages
and babies will all be sharp jolts of what should of been, could of been
if only cancer had not come to call.
Please see:
www.lanefrost.com/laneslegacy.htm
