by Kimberly Lindbergs
Tokyo 2001: Green rice fields disappear under clouds of gray. The city
washes over me like so many buckets of acid rain. Memories of mother come
back to me in flashes . . . flash 9 . . . flash 28 . . . flash 33
Tokyo 1976: Sanrio has just hit American shores. Every little grrl I
know is falling in love with Hello Kitty. I am in Tokyo. First trip overseas.
First romance with another country. I will soon catch the disease that
will plague me my entire life . . . painful wanderlust.
Tokyo 2001: Tears come. I blow my nose. Black snot stains the crumpled
tissue in my hand. Hello Kitty silently stares at me through hundreds
of shop windows. Blinding me with flashes . . . flash 9 . . . flash 28
. . . flash 33 . . .
Tokyo 1976: Mother yells . . ."The train is coming!" . . .
but I can't take my eyes off the magazine rack. Manga images pop off the
pages of brightly colored comic books. Androgynous characters with huge
eyes and small mouths beckon to me. I yell . . . "Please buy me a
comic book!". Money exchanged. Her hand in mine. Comic book now held
tightly under my arm. We rush to catch the next train.
Tokyo 2001: Train station . . . deep in the bowels of Tokyo. Ticket misplaced.
Incorrect change. People pushing. People shoving. Hurrying nowhere. The
magazine racks overstuffed with bright volumes of manga seem to mock me
now. I reach for my mother's hand, but it isn't there . . . only flashes
. . . flash 9 . . . flash 28 . . . flash 33 . . .
Tokyo 1976: Mother whispers . . . "Quite!" . . . but the walls
of the temple hear everything. Prayers are exchanged. Secrets shared.
The golden Buddha smiles at us . . . we smile back. Innocent travelers
in a faraway land . . . wandering.
Tokyo 2001: Nothing is the same. I look for temples lost among skyscrapers.
The noise around me and inside me, is deafening. I am here to pay my respects
to ghosts, but they hide from me . . . in flashes.
For my mother ~ d.1996
Kimberly
is our "Behind the Scenes" feature in this month's Poetry Journal
(Sept 2002), so please click here to read all about her work and art!
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